Out of Nowhere, by Roan Parrish
Series: Middle of Somewhere, Book 2
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Release Date: February 29, 2016
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
Out of Nowhere can be read as a stand-alone, but I recommend reading In the Middle of Somewhere (Book 1) first.
The only thing in Colin Mulligan’s life that makes sense is taking cars apart and putting them back together. In the auto shop where he works with his father and brothers, he tries to get through the day without having a panic attack or flying into a rage. Drinking helps. So does running and lifting weights until he can hardly stand. But none of it can change the fact that he’s gay, a secret he has kept from everyone.
Rafael Guerrera has found ways to live with the past he’s ashamed of. He’s dedicated his life to social justice work and to helping youth who, like him, had very little growing up. He has no time for love. Hell, he barely has time for himself. Somehow, everything about miserable, self-destructive Colin cries out to him. But down that path lie the troubles Rafe has worked so hard to leave behind. And as their relationship intensifies, Rafe and Colin are forced to dredge up secrets that both men would prefer stay buried.
In the Closet/Coming Out
This book was unbelievable. It took my already sky-high expectations, met them, and then blew past them with all the power of a Lamborghini on an open track. I’d previously read and enjoyed Roan’s In the Middle of Somewhere, but Out of Nowhere is a whole ‘nother ball game.
Colin is… everything. Brilliantly-written, complex, the kind of character I dream of reading in every book. He’s so far into the closet that he can’t even admit it to himself, and the way Roan describes his conflicting emotions, his inner turmoil, and the years of repression is staggering.
That night I dreamt of a smothering blackness that wrapped around me like a midnight ocean, seeping into every pore and plugging up my nostrils, my mouth, my eyes, until it consumed me.
The friendship and slow evolution of romance between Colin and Rafe is achingly beautiful, but the heart of this novel is Colin’s struggle to accept himself and his sexuality. His brother Daniel (the MC of Book 1) came out and left the family behind, and Colin is terrified on so many levels to do the same. So he pretends. And my heart broke with every page, because Roan writes words that dig deep. She makes you feel with Colin.
They like me. This person I’m pretending to be. I do the trick again and again as more people wander over.
It’s just misdirection and practice.
Out of Nowhere is extraordinary. I can’t stress that enough. Painful and heart-wrenching and gorgeous, it will tear you apart piece by piece before it finally builds you back up at the end.
Roan’s debut novel, In the Middle of Somewhere, won the award for Best Debut Novel in the Goodreads M/M Book Awards last year! [It is currently on sale at Dreamspinner Press for $1!]
I received an advanced copy of this novel in exchange for a fair and honest review.